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that porn girl.

There’s an inherent problem that’s built into being an ex-porn star and dating someone. To cut to the chase: it’s the problem of whether, or when, to show said someone the porn you’ve made. It’s not as though I hide … Continue reading

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perhaps i am.

Apparently someone found this page by searching google.be for: The most beautiful porno star in the world I checked, I show up on page two of the results. If you put that phrase into google.com, I’m on page three.

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by way of explanation.

I started this blog because I wanted to process my experiences in the altporn world, because I wanted to open up a discussion about what it all meant, about what those years of my life had been dedicated to. I … Continue reading

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what else can you expect?

Someone made the following comment on this post: “popping up only occasionally to tell me about some new sex or porn-related scheme she’d come up with, as if I incapable of having any thoughts of the less than prurient kind.” … Continue reading

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intentions.

I don’t trust anyone who says they do pornography simply out of love. It’s not that I don’t think one cannot love to do pornography: I was certainly far more motivated by love than by money. It’s just that love … Continue reading

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hey little girl, do you want to be famous?

Every story has a beginning.  This is how the story of Lux Nightmare began. I was lying in bed with my then-boyfriend, in his two room studio in pre-gentrification Fort Greene, and he asked me if I wanted to be a porn … Continue reading

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sans souci.

When you do something, and then you stop doing it, everyone always wants to know if you have regrets. This is especially true if you’ve started and stopped doing something as controversial as, say, porn. This is what I have … Continue reading

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wanna be in pictures?

Anne wanted me to be in her movie. It was some strangely avant garde sounding porno film — something she’d dreamed up and decided had to be her next project. Somehow — I was never completely clear on this part … Continue reading

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when it was good.

When it was good it was great. It was me in charge of my little porno empire, calling the shots and being in charge and remaking the world into a kinder, gentler, happier version. It was me sitting on Isobel’s … Continue reading

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the personal is problematic.

I must have heard the phrase “The personal is political” at a very young age: young enough to really, truly absorb the sentiment, to take it to heart, to have it deeply ingrained in my psyche. Everything that I do, … Continue reading

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